Joe casill's Blog – December 2010 Archive (6)

i oftened wondered what  my life would be like if you had lived,

would i have moved to a small town and learned to give,

would i have suffered by the demons of hate,

if you had stayed,mom, if you had stayed,

would i have coward before men,

worn the scars as i tryed to deffend,

faced my death and welcomed him as a friend,

prayed to God asking for the end,

ressurected a new creature of strength and no fear,

helping those that…

i oftened wondered what  my life would be like if you had lived,

would i have moved to a small town and learned to give,

would i have suffered by the demons of hate,

if you had stayed,mom, if you had stayed,

would i have coward before men,

worn the scars as i tryed to deffend,

faced my death and welcomed him as a friend,

prayed to God asking for the end,

ressurected a new creature of strength and no fear,

helping those that…

blessed vengence hear my prayer,

strike them down those that do not care,

for me i am broken my heart my soul,

blessed vengence do as your told,

i gave my love away to soon,

without mercy she struck at me made me a baffoon,

my hate runs deep my anger on fire,

blessed vengence do as i desire,

let her feel my pain,

let it drive her insain,

let her know love that is lost,

let her heart be torn let that feeling be her…

i feel hate and i like it,

i'm tired of all this emotional s***,

the one that i cared for wanted someone who was dumb and poor,

tryed to express my feelings to the one i know,

but they only care for the feelings i don't show,

i'm vengeful and i want pain,

she will suffer as i have suffered,i will drive her insain,

so today i hunt for another that will bring me peace,

or help this pain in me finally cease,

i got out and steal back…

walking thru the sands of time asking God when she will be mine,

He laughs and snickers and with a grin He says,

"love for you is such a sin,

i've made a promise to the females below,

that you my friend will walk alone,

no lips will touch yours and no one will cheer,

you my friend will walk alone..here,"

i brushed the sands…

my hands are lifed i'm ready to fly,

my heart is pumping i hope i don't die,

i'm fly and standing,

i'm free as a bird,

i'm in love with another but it can not be my turn,

she wants to be friends and i understand,

i can push back these feelings,yes i am a man,

though my sex is on fire and wanting to flow,…