I want to be the only hand you need to hold....--Diary blog#1

I wonder why he dose it..Am I not enough...pretty enough...I dont know...I wish I did...He makes me sing, Laugh, Cry laughing, get butterflies..&& I wonder if you know how much it hurts to see && hear that your cheating on me? I cry my self to sleep everynight..I wish to die everynight becuase I would like the pain to stop. Do you love me? You say you do..I believe you do. Theres aprat that says you love me with all of your heart but another saying he dosent give a crap or else why would he do this to you? We have our life planned out I've spent 1 year && 3 months knowing you, about 10 months with you, && about 1 year wishing I've never met...Now, that may not make secne but really it dose and its not realy bad but..Like,???.... ummm..??? Its like you hurt me sooo much I wish you never had said Hi to me.. I do love you...But the question really is...Do you love me? Really think about it. && get back to me. :) I jsut dont want to be hurt && do something crazy..:))